You know what God wants from you – how can you refuse?
You [have a] sense that your [active or ignorant] resistance to His call comes entirely from self-love [that is, pride of life, idolatry of self]. Will you allow your pride to grow and invent more ingenious excuses only to reject God’s mercy? [That is, do you want to continue making up “spiritualized” excuses to actively reject God’s call just to protect your own pride?]
You apply so many moral standards to your wandering thoughts – just learn to ignore them.
You confess things that are better to disregard, Yet the fact that you continually resist the holy spirit is of no concern to you.
Is this because God does not see fit to give you what you want, the way you want it?
Self-interest and pride cause you to reject the gifts of God because they do not come in a way that suites your taste.
How can you pray? What is God speaking to you in the depths of your spirit? He asks for nothing but death, but you desire nothing but life. How can you ask Him to answer a prayer only the way you want it answered?
Does it matter if you receive the gifts of grace the way a beggar receives bread? This would not cause the gifts to be less pure or less precious. Receive with humility the sweet grace that God wants to give you.
